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It seems my life is gonna change [Jun. 18th, 2004|11:35 pm]
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How is it that i have become the essence of what i hate? I hate two faced liars who let people walk all over them, who are cowards and can't handle simple tasks because they are weak. That is what i am, weak. I lie to other to get what i want and honestly, it doesn't bother me. I pretend to be someone i am not all the time, my entire life has been based on lies and i'm not that sorry, i really dont care. Every morning i wake up and put on a charade for everyone, i am an actress and all of you have come to watch the performance. Up intil recently i have lied even to my best friend or friends b/c i only have two people i feel comfortable around, ridiculous i know, but its the truth. I shy away from the unfamiliar b/c it scares me, it scares me to think of making and keeping new friends. I hate that i let people walk all over me b/c im too nice to say anything, i hate how people think i cant do simple tasks.


I am a big girl and i can take care of myself, i dont need people telling me how to do things like open a can of pop!! Just b/c i am kinda quite and let most things slide people think that they can just walk all over me and do whatever the hell they want to me, well it ends here, today, right now. At camp (anyone who reads this and is going to camp with me) dont expect me to let anyone walk all over me like i have years before, if you piss me off i am telling you, if you do something i dont like i am telling you, you all have been warned. I dont care if i hurt you, im sick and tired of being the victem in every situation. I am taking charge weather you people like it or not. I'm out...au revoir

From: cherry_nexus
2004-06-19 02:47 am (UTC)

I'm Hitler, and you're a Jew, f_ck you and have a nice day ^_^

Hey babe,

Sorry that you feel that way and I know most ppl would say they know how you feel, but I really do I think you know that though so no need for saying it, prolly planning a get, sleep-overish thing soon I would like it if you come, and I hope I don't make you feel uncomfy and if I do I'm sorry bout it.

You know what I say, if someone doesnt like what you do then fuck them, they dont have watch. ^^

Hope you have fun at camp, I was going to go but I have no idea when it starts so ja.

ttyl, Ja'ne.


(Hehe srry bout title thought it might make ya laugh) :P
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[User Picture]From: vanilla_rayne
2004-06-19 01:43 pm (UTC)

Re: I'm Hitler, and you're a Jew, f_ck you and have a nice day ^_^

no no no doll you dont make me feel uncomfy at all, i will try to come to the sleepoverish type thing,lol and i love the subject title thingy, it did make me giggle. An i will try to have fun at camp *hugs*

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[User Picture]From: excidodraco
2004-06-19 04:59 pm (UTC)

Burn down the world, spread out the ashes and walk away

Yea don't let whores walk over you I say whores because I am obsesed with the word that and its fun =P but do stand up for ureself so what if u let some shit slide not everyone is a fighter but don't be a doormat stand up when u need to don't fuck with what u don't have to I should listen to my own advice but I don't influence myself I do know ure a big girl but I care a lot about you and try to help where I can I will gladly back off if u don't want my help but I just want u to know should u start to sink beneath the sand I'll help ya on out and pull ure head above the water until u can carry ureself again

-I trust you with respect
and you tear me down
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[User Picture]From: vanilla_rayne
2004-06-19 07:16 pm (UTC)

Re: Burn down the world, spread out the ashes and walk away

That comment wasn't directed towards you btw ^_^
It was directed to everyone in general. But yeah im just tired of people walking all over me so im gonna stop it right now ^_^;
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[User Picture]From: k1_urashima
2004-07-18 11:07 am (UTC)
Good doll. No one should be a doormat. Just know you don't have to turn into a huge bitch in order to not be a doormat, lol.

Not that I'm saying you are one but you know what I'm sayin. :p

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[User Picture]From: vanilla_rayne
2004-07-18 01:32 pm (UTC)
yeah i know what you are sayin and, i dont think i became either one...a bitch or a doormat ^_^
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