|It seems my life is gonna change
||[Jun. 18th, 2004|11:35 pm]
Do you remember me?
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How is it that i have become the essence of what i hate? I hate two faced liars who let people walk all over them, who are cowards and can't handle simple tasks because they are weak. That is what i am, weak. I lie to other to get what i want and honestly, it doesn't bother me. I pretend to be someone i am not all the time, my entire life has been based on lies and i'm not that sorry, i really dont care. Every morning i wake up and put on a charade for everyone, i am an actress and all of you have come to watch the performance. Up intil recently i have lied even to my best friend or friends b/c i only have two people i feel comfortable around, ridiculous i know, but its the truth. I shy away from the unfamiliar b/c it scares me, it scares me to think of making and keeping new friends. I hate that i let people walk all over me b/c im too nice to say anything, i hate how people think i cant do simple tasks.
I am a big girl and i can take care of myself, i dont need people telling me how to do things like open a can of pop!! Just b/c i am kinda quite and let most things slide people think that they can just walk all over me and do whatever the hell they want to me, well it ends here, today, right now. At camp (anyone who reads this and is going to camp with me) dont expect me to let anyone walk all over me like i have years before, if you piss me off i am telling you, if you do something i dont like i am telling you, you all have been warned. I dont care if i hurt you, im sick and tired of being the victem in every situation. I am taking charge weather you people like it or not. I'm out...au revoir