|We're in the arms of the angel, may you find some comfort here
||[Jun. 19th, 2004|08:20 pm]
Do you remember me?
|||||Sarah McClauglen "Angel"||]|
Now i remember why i lie to people.....to protect myself, to protect myself from getting hurt and to protect you from getting hurt by the truth. I hate telling the truth b/c it hates me so much. I told him that Luke knew and, well it over the net so i dont know how mad he really was, but he didnt seem too mad. But, i don't really know either way, i guess i will see tomorrow. It was all a big vicious circle of lies that i knew would come back to me eventually. I mean i knew what was going on wouldnt last forever, nothing with him ever does so why would this time be any different? I knew it wouldnt be, why should anything be different for me? Year after year it repeats itself just in a slightly different form. I'm thinking i might just tell everyone everything, about any lies i have told about what i do behind locked doors and how i really feel towards people. I wish Luke was home, i need his help right now. Since when does it take 6 hrs to eat dinner? Hrm, i watched that Mandy Moore movie "How to Deal" and it was pretty good, kinda sad at some points, but good nonetheless. Leave for camp monday morning, kinda excited....kinda not. Well i'm out, au revoir