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Do you belive in magic, in a young girl's heart..... [Jun. 14th, 2004|05:30 pm]
Do you remember me?
[feelin' |amusedamused]
[listenin' to |American Pie music]

How to make a Vanilla_Rayne
Ingredients:

1 part pride

3 parts brilliance

5 parts empathy
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little emotion if desired!


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Boring typical day, bleh. Had some nice dreams last night though ^_^ hehehe. LOL i love the American Pie movies, they make giggle inside and out nonetheless. Esp. when his dad gives him the porn, it's great. Finally today someone noticed why i havent been looking for a job yet. My brother asked me how long i was gonna be volunteering at Hillcrest b/c he has to come pick me up and i told him Tues and Thurs until July and i have camp next week. I mean it's not like i just sit around here all day doing nothing, i clean house, i do dishes, i do laundry and i get on the internet. Okay the last part....well scratch that,lol. And if i have to hear my mom nag at me one more time i'm going to crack!!!! I can't wait to move out -.- But until then....i wait....and complain,lol. Au Revoir

IF I HAVE TO HEAR THAT WOMAN NAG AT ME ONE MORE TIME I'M JUMPING OUT OF A 35 STORY BUILDING WINDOW!!!
Ya know she keeps talking to me, but all i ever hear is "nag nag nag nag nag bitch bitch bitch get a job blah blah" I want to move out as soon as i can, as soon as i get back from camp i'm gonna find a job and save every last pennie i get for an apartment. There are always apartments on riverside for rent, i'm sure i could find one with no problem. I'm gonna get a job, buy a car then save, save, save. There is no way in hell i am staying here longer than i have to. My mom said as soon as i graduate she is gonna divorce my dad anyway and personally i dont wanna be here when she does that to him and breaks up our family even more than it already is. GAH! I'm out, i won't be back tonight i have to volunteer tomorrow -.- tudals
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More lies about a world that never was and never will be [Jun. 13th, 2004|09:15 pm]
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[feelin' |annoyedannoyed]
[listenin' to |Evanescence "Everybody's fool"]

hmm not much to say, had fun today except people keep assumeing i hate them, which pisses me off. Esp. Luke acting that way, i mean he has left me alone or left me early from somewhere plenty of times and i have done it to him like 3 or 4 times and he gets all pissed off at me. I'm sorry...but well i dont know what else to say. And my back won't stop hurting, i need sleep and im not looking forward to volunteering this year x_x au revoir and sorry to bore ya'll
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And I'm staring down the barrell of a .45....no real reason to accept the way, things have changed.. [Jun. 11th, 2004|06:57 pm]
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[feelin' |disappointeddisappointed]
[listenin' to |Shinedown ".45"]

Got back from Lukey's house today, we went and saw Garfield with Alice then came back home and watched Scream then went out and ate at Western Sizzlin. My nephew Cody is staying the night....he's only 4, cute, yeah but everytime we go out they think he is mine ^_^;;; he is 4 i would of been 12 0_0 no thank you. Anyway, i am so tired and that so very odd feeling has come back once again. I really hate feeling that way but there's nothing i can do about it... i guess. Hrm....sorry i'm so boring, Au revoir
I made the mistake of doing a lot of things tonight, i hate that i can't control my temper very well ans i yell at the wrong people, i'm sorry....if you dont deserve it. If you deserve it for oh i dont know, calling me a fag then i'm not sorry....that is all...au revoir

ABOUT YOU
Your full name:: Nicole Alexa Mullin
Age:: 16
Height:: 5'7
Natural hair colour:: was black but turned blue and now its washing out to dirty blonde
Eye colour:: very creepyily (lol) green
Number of siblings:: two
Glasses/contacts?:: both
Piercings:: 4 on me ears
Tattoos:: not yet
Braces?:: Nopes


FAVOURITE
Colour:: Black
Band:: AFI
Song:: AFI "Leaving Song" Evanescence "Tourniquit"
Stuffed animal:: Bunnybaby and my Panicbutton bear
Video game:: TETRIS!!!!
TV show:: uhm...South Park?
Movie:: Interveiw with a Vampire and The Crow(s)
Book:: Any Ann Rice book
Food:: any pasta
Game on a cell phone:: SNAKE!!!
CD cover:: no idea
Flower:: black roses
Scent:: Curve and Lucky
Secret:: i was born deaf?
Animal:: Bunnies and kitties ^_^
Comic book:: THE CROW!!
Cereal:: Count Chocula
Website:: FMC
Cartoon:: Family guy, Bebop, Trigun
Play an instrument?:: guitar >.> <.<
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: probobly not
Like to sing?:: very much so
Have a job?:: nope but i am "looking" for one...yeah,lol
Have a cell phone?:: me and my mum share one
Like to play sports?:: Jump rope count?
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no -.-
Have a crush on someone?:: yessss
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Nopes
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: nope only 3
Have any special talents/skills?:: sure, but i'd rather not tell u *nyah*
Exercise daily?:: ha! no
Like school?:: well not ediosn, maybe i will like CPHS

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: yes!
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: i could when i was in dance
Speak any other languages?:: French, SPanish and American Sign language
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: hell ya
Read music, not just tabs?:: kinda
Roll your tongue?:: >.> <.< yes
Eat a whole pizza?:: yeah,lol

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: no....
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yup yup
Gotten lost in your city?:: uh,no
Seen a shooting star?:: a few times
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: Nope
Had a serious surgery?:: when i was born to give me partial hearing
Stolen something important to someone else?:: nah
Solved a rubiks cube?:: NEVER!!
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: every other day *L*
Cried over a girl?:: yeah, but not like that
Cried over a boy?:: lots of times
Kissed a random stranger?:: No
Hugged a random stranger?:: yeah ^_^
Been in a fist fight?:: yuppers
Been arrested?:: nope im too sneaky
Had alcohol?:: Yup yup
Had milk come out of your nose?:: no, but i have had pop,water,tea and Kool Aide
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: ^_^;;;; yes and then people got on and looked at me and my friend like we were nuts....not to say we arent
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::hell no im informed
Swore at your parents?:: ....yes
Been to warped tour?:: sadly no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: many a time ^_^;
Been to a casino?:: nope
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: awwwww no
Broken a bone?:: several
Gotten stitches?:: ...several,lol
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: nopes
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: im allergic
Made homemade muffins?:: yes!!
Bitten someone?:: hells yeah
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: :( no
More than 5 times?:: what?
Been to niagra falls?:: nopers
Burped in someones face?:: rofl....yes
Gotten the chicken pox?:: yup

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: ....yesterday...i forgot this morning!!!
Went to the bathroom:: i have to right now
Saw a movie in theaters:: about 10hrs ago, i saw Garfield
Read a book:: uhm this afternoon
Had a snow day:: hmm while back
Had a party:: Ha!
Had a slumber party:: 7 yrs ago
Made fun of someone:: *shrugs*
Tripped in front of someone:: hmmm i dunno
Went to the grocery store:: last sunday
Cursed:: ....about 2 secs ago >.> <.<

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: a handful
What are their names?:: Luke,Mindy,April,Liz,Fish,Lisa,Pants,Daniel,Stoner Face,Zetty,Andrea luv, Mallie, Anthony, Matt...myself?
Do you have a best friend?:: Lukey
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: yes
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: looks like girl, but i hand out with my guy friend more
Have you ever lost a friend?:: ....yeah....
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: oh yeah
What's an inside joke between you and a friend?:: COUSIN CAMEL!!!
What's the nicest thing you've ever done for a friend?:: *shrugs*
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: ^see above^
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Amber
What friend have you known the longest?:: Luke, 16 yrs and counting
Do you regret anything you've done to a friend?:: lots....
If so, what is it?:: never tell
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: as much as i can i guess
Do any of your friends drive?:: Daniel,Pants,Andrea,April,Matt...i think thats it
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: yes, Cyrus
What's the dumbest thing you've done with a friend?:: everything, can everything count?
What do you think your friends think of you?:: That i am psycho and beyond explanation

LOVE AND ALL
Are you single?:: yup
Are you in a relationship?:: what kinda dumbass question.....
If so, for how long?:: shu up,lol
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: simply stated...no
What is your idea of the best date?:: just sitting outside, on a clear night and cuddling etc.
What was your first kiss like?:: sweet...very sweet, not just in taste
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: the one i count as my first...15 i think, maybe 14
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: yes ^_^;;
What's the best experience you've ever had with the opposite sex?:: ....truck....
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: yes yes yes
Have you ever been dumped?:: dumped,rejected,used,abused, u name it doll
Have you ever dumped someone?:: yup
What's the most sexual thing you've done with the opposite sex?:: eh,blow jobs and stuff i guess

SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: ROCK
What time is it now?:: 10:40 p.m
What day is it?:: Friday -_-
When's the last time you called someone?:: a few hours ago, called my mum
How much money do you have right now?:: $2.50 exactly
Are you hungry?:: no no no, very full
Whatcha doin?:: contemplating....doing things i am not suppose to
Do you like parades?:: if i am in them,yes
Do you like the moon?:: very much so
What are you going to do when you're done with this?:: take a bath, take some strong painkillers to knock me out and ....well be knocked out ^_^
Isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: *repeats then smiles slightly* yeah
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: to become invisable
Have you ever had a picnic?:: yes the Teddy Bear Picnic!!!
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: i still have it baby
What about sock em boppers?:: nah i wasnt "young" when those came out silly
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: *gasp* i never wear socks in the summer silly

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: i can be
pretty?:: No
sarcastic?:: hell yes
lazy?:: yup
hyper?:: can be
friendly?:: Not really
evil?:: definitly
smart?:: no
strong?:: nope, not physically or mentally
talented?:: can be
dorky?:: Yes

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: depends on whos it is
love:: neither
drunk drivers:: Against
airplanes::neither
war:: Against
canada:: FOR IT!!! (Chris)
united states:: against
rock music:: For
gay marriage:: For
school:: against
surveys:: for, im doing it arent i?
parents:: ....neither
cars:: For
killing:: both
britney spears:: AGAINST!
coffee:: For
pants:: against! *rips yours off* mwhahaha....ha

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: yes
Play strip poker?:: yes
Run away?:: have and probobly will agian
Curse at a teacher?:: yup
Not take a shower for a week?:: ewwwwww
Ask someone out?:: have and will again...maybe...someday
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: have before, wont again
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: yes yes
Go scuba diving?:: yes
Write a book?:: I could try
Become a rock star?:: yes yes
Have casual sex?:: could be

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: Pantene
When's the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: Few weeks ago
What kind of computer do you have?:: Toshiba laptop
What grade are you in?:: 11th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: yes ^_^
Or just make out?:: makeing out is good
How many posters do you have in your room?:: oh geeze...tons
How many cds do you have?:: i dunno
What time is it now?:: 10:53 p.m

HASH(0x88d5f54)
You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


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here comes the water to wash away the sins of you and I [Jun. 10th, 2004|11:42 am]
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[feelin' |boredbored]
[listenin' to |Velvet Revolver]

mreow, i am terribly bored and i feel kind of sick, probobly b/c i havent eaten anything. But i'm not hungry *shrugs* I'm staying the night with Luke tonight!!! Yay!! And tomorrow we are gonna go see Garfeild tomorrow with Alice, it should be fun nonetheless. Geeze my summer is getting off to a very slow start -.- and i dont like it. I want a car damnet! Then again....I would probobly just crash it too...so, maybe i shouldn't get a car, yes, point taken. Oh look i'm arguing with and convencing myself now, -_- super. I need human contact, someone save me? Hrm....


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And I'm staring down the barrel of a .45, swimming through the ashes of another life [Jun. 9th, 2004|07:53 pm]
Do you remember me?
[feelin' |amusedamused]
[listenin' to |Shinedown "45"]

I want everyone who reads this to leave a comment explaining what you would like to do with me someday. Go ahead and be completely honest; x-rated comments are welcome.

This should be interesting.....oh yeah, put it in your journal to see what i say about you
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I don't know why i act the way i do, sometimes i'm my own worse enemy [Jun. 8th, 2004|11:17 pm]
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[feelin' |exhaustedexhausted]
[listenin' to |Tim McGraw "Cowboy in Me"]

Answer In Song Lyrics

1.) Are you male or female?:
She's Back Again

2.) Describe your neighborhood:
sucking me dry, It’s my fading destiny

3.) How do you look?:
Look how pretty she is When she falls down And there's no beauty in
Bleeding Mascara Lips are quivering Like a withering rose

4.) If you could say something to the person you love, what would it be?:
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

5.) Where do you wish you were right now?
In my field of paper flowers And candy clouds of lullaby

6.) What would you say to your best friend?:
Please, please forgive me But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up And barely conscious you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?

7.) Any words of wisdom:
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you The killer in me is the killer in you

8.) What do you wish you were doing right now?:
I'm dying Praying Bleeding Screaming

9.) What do you think of drugs and alcohol?:
And I’m sympathetic

10.) If you could say one thing to your enemy, what would it be?:
Nobody's gonna stand in my way Give it up son, I'm doing this my way

11.) What do you usually do on Friday nights?:
Holding my last breath Safe inside myself Are all my thoughts of you Sweet raptured light It ends here tonight

12.) Are you for world peace?:
Wanna get some gasoline And burn the house down

13.) What do you think about school?:
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now

14.) How do you feel right now?:
What the fuck do you think love is
It's more important than your own feelings

15.) Any closing words?:
And my words will be here when I’m gone As I’m fading away against the wind
And the words you left me linger on As I’m failing again now, never to change this
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Mikey got with Sharon and Sharon got Sherie she was sharing Sharon's outlook on the topic of disease [Jun. 8th, 2004|01:35 pm]
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[feelin' |energetic]
[listenin' to |Butthole Surfers "Avalanche"]

Last day of school today, ya know we had to go back to school b/c we didn't have power,right? Well around 10:30 this morning me and Stephy were walking back from the French room and the lights flickerd,lol. Luckily my last final was done and i just chilled for the next 1hr and a half and they didnt make us go back AGAIN. I have worn my bondage pants with the chains on them more than enough times this year and Ms. Howler never stopped me before and today....the last day of school she tells me to take them off....she is one crazy witch....for lack of better words. Well i guess im done for now, au revoir

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and
to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in
oneself. Has reputation.
Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful.
Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and
unpredictable. Moody and
easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides
others physically and
mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions
carefully. Caring and loving.
Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy.
Wary and sharp. Judges
people through observations. Hardworking. No
difficulties in studying. Loves
to be alone. Always broods about the past and the
old friends. Likes to be
quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never
looks for friends. Not
aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach
and dieting problems.
Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to
recover


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0_0 I soooo freaking hate clowns.... [Jun. 5th, 2004|01:49 pm]
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[feelin' |calmcalm]
[listenin' to |100 Most Metal Moments in the back ground]

Alright well i went with my mum and da to a car show in Sapulpa, cool except for that it rained majority of the time we were there. So we were walking around, it was kinda sprinkling and i had my umbrella open. Well there was this fireman dressed as a clown and he stopped to talk to me...

CLown: Hey, you wanna share your umbrella with a handsome clown? *smile*
Me: *petrefied b/c i HATE clowns* No, i hate clowns
CLown: YOu hate clowns? Why?
Me: b/c they are scary
Clown: Aww well i'm not scary am i?
Me: *slight smile* yes, all clowns are scary
Clown: Well you are beautiful, you know that
Me: *raises eyebrow* okay, thanks
Clown: See i'm not a scary clown, I work for the Sapulpa Fire dept. and i have 3 kids, I'm not a scary clown am i? *sad face*
Me: Okay, you arent a scary clown
CLown: Thank you
Me: but i gotta go *walks away* bye

Nothing worse than a sad horney clown *L* Then i bought me an awesome fairy tee and a dragon to paint at the Saturday Market. I wanna see freaking Harry Potter!!! Where is that Luke of mine?! Au Revoir
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and its hard at the end of the day i need some distraction oh beautiful release [Jun. 4th, 2004|02:18 pm]
Do you remember me?
[feelin' |frustratedfrustrated]
[listenin' to |Shinedown ".45"]

Well boring day so this is going to be a boring entry, sorry. I am useless, at this very moment in my life i see no purpose that i serve to anyone. Yeah, sure, my handful of friends, maybe my parents but thats only what, 10 people? I use to have more friends, i use to be happy all of the time what happend to the old me? I grew up i guess, learned lessons the hard way and tryed to move on. I've forgiven everyone who has cause harm to me but it still hurts sometimes when im all alone and i have too much time to think. I learned that when the power goes out you have too much time to sit and think in the dark, i dont like doing that. I go crazy inside my own mind, someone save me? Now look at me, ranting on like a lunatic, then again who is to say i'm not. And to top it all off, its hard for me to breathe....gonna be a great weekend....i can already tell, well im off Au Revoir


But hey! Maybe i will get to see Harry Potter sometime this weekend ^_^ yayayaya
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so....bored.... [Jun. 4th, 2004|09:37 am]
Do you remember me?
[feelin' |relaxedrelaxed]
[listenin' to |Driven: Avril Lavigne]

No school again today, but just my school b/c apparently we don't have an power. I REALLY want to get my last final over with!!!! So now we will probobly have to go on monday....but hey at least i have power today. Luke went out to eat, i dunno where Pants is and...well everyone else is in school or something i guess....bleh, so bored and im cold and i havent had any human contact since 6 this morning. I'm all alone....and bored *L* well i guess i'll stop whining Au Revoir
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